Nadya Suleman has left me in limbo.
Yes, I absolutely watched the Nadya Suleman two hour special of “unseen footage” last night. This particular evening, I felt like judging someone, pointing my finger, and feeling self-righteous. It was as if the Gods had designed the night’s television programing just for me.
Octomom …
on a silver platter…
enjoy…
I settled on my couch with a bowl of pasta, ready to feel the anger rise up inside of me. Unfortunately, I was denied.
Oh there was anger, a little, but it didn’t really rise- just kinda floated around a bit. She’s attention- seeking, for sure. She’s messed up. She’s put these children in a horrible situation. But these are all things I already knew, and now after watching this stupid special, I know that she knows it too. She said herself that she screwed up her life, she’s screwed up her children’s lives, and now she’s just doing the best she can.
Well, fuck.
I can’t really hate you when you admit that you’re wrong.
We’re all just doing the best we can. And we’ve all made some mistakes– I’ve made some doozies.
I suppose I was hoping to either be filled with hate, or, on the other side of the spectrum, to see some great redemption story. Instead I just saw a woman who messed up big time and is living with the consequences. I didn’t feel sorry for her, she brought it on herself. I didn’t hate her either. I was just … apathetic.
Well, Jesus, apathy I can get at the grocery store.
I did feel a little sorry for the kids. But, honestly, there was so much crying and whining in that household, that my special mommy mute button was pressed. You know, the one that allows you to keep your sanity amidst the earth shattering sound of your child’s cries. That one.
So, two hours of television equaled wasted time for me. I learned nothing, felt little, and have now resigned myself to no more Octomom viewing or reading.
At least, I’m gonna try really hard.
–seriously
Taylor
Friday, 21st August 2009 at 6:01 am
I love this post. I, too, felt apathetic.
However, I did feel sorry for those babies….her inability to answer their cries is slowly breaking the trust between mother and child. What the hell is she going to do when they are walking?! And whining?!
Too deep? Sorry.
mommyjenn
Friday, 21st August 2009 at 10:20 am
Oh Gosh, Taylor, I can’t even imagine what will happen when they all start walking!
You’re right, she can’t possibly answer all their cries, and it is breaking a trust. Her older children already seem pretty unhappy.
I feel a little in limbo because I don’t wanna advocate taking children away from their mothers. I’m sure she loves them, but it’s impossible to be a good mom in this situation. No solution. She just swimming in her own muck now.
Mama Bear
Saturday, 5th September 2009 at 7:04 pm
I couldn’t bring myself to watch the special. As someone physically unable to get pregnant and financially unable to afford the procedures that might help me, I respond to Suleman in much the same way I do to a canker sore. She’s gross and I wish she’d just go away.
Though I feel somewhat satisfied, I guess, to hear that she says she realizes she’s made mistakes, I also feel bewildered by the size of the mistakes she’s made. And continues to make. If she can’t take care of her kids, then doesn’t she owe it to them to give them the best life she can- even if it’s not with her?
While I don’t believe anyone should mandate this, I do believe that’s the only real way out of the, as you so aptly call it, muck she has created.
But I’m with you. I am choosing to turn away from that particular train wreck… not only because of the uselessness of watching, but because I just don’t care to give my energy to her.
mommyjenn
Saturday, 5th September 2009 at 8:22 pm
The scales don’t seem to balance sometimes when there are irresponsible people out there like her, having truckloads of babies, and people like you, who would make beautiful parents.
Yes, she does not deserve your energy.
I, however, adore your energy and am grateful you bestow it upon me