Girls Vacay!!! – Unless I change my mind in the next two hours…

I’m going to Vegas.

I’m going to Vegas, sans child and husband.

I’m going to Vegas, sans child and husband, in a couple hours.

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Unless, of course, I don’t go.

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All of a sudden, I’m terrified to leave. I have never, I repeat NEVER left my child overnight. Bam Bam is two years old now, and will be with his Daddy the whole time. Up until today, I have been nothing but excited about this trip.  I’m still excited- incredibly excited. But I am also buzzing with nerves.

I AM NERVOUS.

I’m nervous that tomorrow Bam Bam will ask where mommy is, and cry because he doesn’t understand that I’m coming back in a few days. I’m nervous that he’ll fall and get hurt, and I won’t be there to soothe him. I’m nervous that he’ll miss his naps.  I’m nervous that he’ll do something incredibly cute for the first time, and I’ll miss it.

I’m also nervous that he’ll be perfectly fine, and not even notice I am gone.

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And, believe it or not, I am nervous about having fun.

I’m not sure I know how to do that anymore. I’m going for four days away with a good girly friend. We are going to Vegas, baby- fun, right?  But how do I relax? How do I let loose? How much fun is too much fun? I am a mom now. How much fun is a mom allowed to have?

What if, for a few hours, I DO NOT THINK ABOUT MY CHILD AT ALL? Does that make me a bad mom?

This whole relaxing and having fun thing is much harder than it seems.

But I suppose I’ll go.

Seriously, I doubt I’ll get this chance again for a long, long time.

And Hot Nerd is more than capable. He knows our son’s schedule. He knows what he eats. He’s taken CPR classes. He knows cookies are not for dinner… well, I’ll just remind him a couple times on that one.

And there was a point in time when I knew how to party.

So, here I go.

Off to “have fun”.

I’ll try to only call a few times a day.

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Mom’s are allowed to take their tops off in Vegas, right?

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Discussion

  1. Mommy Lisa says:

    GO ALREADY! Jeez.
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  2. Laura says:

    “How much fun is a mom allowed to have?”

    TONS! Especially in Vegas!

    “What if, for a few hours, I DO NOT THINK ABOUT MY CHILD AT ALL? Does that make me a bad mom?”

    Hell no! It makes you an awesome mom. (It does. Just agree with me. Or I’m going to start feeling guilty about the last, um, three trips I took to Vegas…)

    HAVE FUN

  3. RevsInAbs says:

    GO! He’ll miss you for a moment, and then he’ll get over it and get to have a wonderful, singular experience with his dad! Hot Nerd’s way of doing things will differ from yours, and that will be awesome and exciting–all the parenting books say so, and my own experiences have taught me so. And, most importantly, you will return an even more awesome mom for having a chance to go off and be JUST YOU for a bit, sans labels, minus any tiny levels of bitterness and resentment for always being tied to your sweetheart.____And you can totally take your top off–just don’t let anyone take any pictures of you topless. Facebook is a b&tch!

  4. What happens in Vegas…
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  5. Melanie says:

    Sitstagal! Go, go, go and DON’T LOOK BACK! I am right there with you, my daughter is two years old. You’ve got to remember a couple things though: How many opportunities do you even get to leave to a nice elegant restaurant for a few hours, let alone enjoy yourself on a vacation?

    Yes, you’ll miss him. You’ll be all hugging for him, and he will miss you. He’ll know his mommy’s gone, but I’m sure it will be okay. As at that age, they constantly cling to mommy, it’ll be a great time for daddy and him to connect. They can go do manly things together. LOL.
    Seriously, it’s great to try and get away if you can. One day, I will have to do that with my own, but right now I’m afraid she’s always attached to my knee. Your a great parent for giving your child the opportunity to be away from mommy, it’s healthy. And it’s healthy for you to get away too.

    Do you have to go alone though? Can I come too?LOL. Never seen Vegas? JK. But really, enjoy yourself. Your life will be waiting back here again when your ready.
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  6. ChiIL Mama says:

    Please tell me you went! I’m jealous. I’ve only been to Vegas twice and was with the kids both times.

    My first time, Sagezilla was 9 months old and got the flu in the airport before we took off. She did the nurse and puke all over both of us the whole flight from Chicago then spiked a high fever. Neither of us slept for more than an hour or left the hotel room for two days.

    When we finally emerged, we spent a day doing laundry, since she’d puked on a week’s worth of clothes for both of us! It was swHELL. Hope you had much more fun times.

    B

  7. MommaKiss says:

    Will you e-mail me? Immediately? I must know that you went on this trip, had a wonderful time, of COURSE you thought about your kid, but said kid is still alive, right? Girls trips rock. You have fun. You refresh. You miss your family so it’s all happy rainbows when you get back. I take girls trips like 6x a year. Sometimes it’s one night, sometimes 5 nights. So Needed!
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