Very honored. Very pregnant. Very terrified.
I have not been shy about sharing my anxiety and social awkwardness with all of you. I was not always this way, but things have happened in my life that have dramatically changed the way I approach the world. My anxiety has been my shadow for the last eight years now.
I am only anxious with strangers… and crowds… and when I am alone.
But since I’ve deemed this the Year of the Scary for me, I decided to challenge myself by attending my first ever blogging conference. In two weeks I am going to BlogHer ’11 in San Diego.
For the sixty percent of my readers who are not bloggers- this conference is HUGE. This conference is one of the biggest, most respected in the country.
It will be crowded.
I will be there alone.
I won’t know a single soul.
I will be forced to “network”.
Wait for it…
I was also chosen to present some of my work at the keynote.
I was chosen as one of the Voices Of The Year in the humor category.
I found out last night.
I am very honored.
I am also very pregnant.
There was crying. There was laughing. There was jumping. There was the passing of gas.
And now there is the hand wringing.
I will be standing up in front of thousands and saying “Here is something I did. Please love me.”
Did I mention I will be seven months pregnant? There will be no calming of the nerves with alcohol… or Xanax. Just me, sober, with sausage legs, a basketball belly, and a baby bouncing on my bladder.
It could be a recipe for disaster.
Or the opportunity to don my superhero cape and have one of the best moments of my life.
I’ll let you know.
PS- A very big thank you to the BlogHer Voices Of The Year Committee, for honoring me, and terrifying the shit out of me. I can’t wait.