This is why I’m not in investments.

Sometimes my husband surprises me…

in ways that make me a little uneasy…

Hot Nerd:  Bought a bunch of BP stock a few days ago.

Me:  Why?

Hot Nerd:  It was dirt cheap.

Me:  But we hate them!

Hot Nerd:  Money is money.

Me:  What?! What about the turtles?

Hot Nerd:  You can’t have ethics when you’re investing.  It’s more or less all earned on the blood of others.

I suppose this is why I don’t work in investments.

It’s also why I don’t like taking out the trash.

It’s messy.

And I often feel like I need a shower afterward.

I do like pretty things, though- things that are often expensive.

Perhaps that’s why I am a little uneasy.

Not because of him,

but because of me.

Yoga costs money and husbands are annoying: A two point post.

yogaMy husband took a time management seminar at work yesterday. Oh goody.

My husband also likes to fix things – even things that aren’t broken.

He brought home some information for me that he thinks will help me manage my time better as a mother, and therefore give me much needed time to focus on me. Perhaps, he suggests, I might have time for  that yoga class.

Now, I have been dying to take a class – yoga, dance, excercise, whatever. However, we have really tightened the purse strings this year in order to buy our first house, and it was decided that any kind of class that has a fee is really a “no go” at this point.

Needless to say, the mere suggestion that the reason I’m not in a class is because I don’t know how to manage my time, really ticks me off!  I’m not in a class because we don’t have any help to watch the baby, we don’t have money to burn, and I have yet to find a free class that offers free childcare.

Yeah, I’ve tried the whole doing yoga at home thing. But doing postures in my closet-like living room with the dogs jumping all over me and listening to the sounds of the baby monitor, just did not put me in that serene place.

My hubby’s philosophy is that if you find the time to take care of yourself first- you are better able to take care of everything else.  Easy to say when he can join a gym through work and work out whenever he wants. He also gets to take off work to go to the doctor or dentist and doesn’t have to worry about who’s gonna watch our child.

It’s easy for him to worry about himself because that’s what guys do. They take care of numero uno first, or else they just can’t function. Mothers, on the other hand, can operate full steam ahead while completely stressed out, hungry, sleep deprived, and without a shower or having peed in hours.

How dare he suggest that I am not managing my time well!

I can just imagine him after taking that seminar thinking, “I’m gonna go home and save the day! I’m gonna fix my poor, haggard wife, and teach her a thing or two about getting things done!”.

Him and his big ole’ swingin’ penis are gonna swoop in and make things right. Oh boy, does that make me want a big fat yoga class right now!

I don’t need fixed. I am not broken. I am a good mother and wife. I actually mange my time well. What he doesn’t realize is that I actually choose to put our son and him first.

I know how to sacrafice.

I know how to bury my needs and wants in order to make sure my family is happy.

That’s what good mothers do.

God, my husband is annoying.

Especially when he’s right.

No Price Tag On Little Lives.

holdinglulu

Yesterday, we had to rush our little dog Lucy to the hospital. She couldn’t walk all of a sudden and was panting very heavily. Her eyes were terrified and her breathing was so labored, that I seriously thought we could be losing her.

It turns out that she has some sort of congenital disk disease and her spine was swollen. She was pumped full of steroids and given pain medication and after several hours at the hospital was sent home to us on strict bed-rest. The doctor gave us a list of signs to watch out for and kind of a “wait and see” prognosis.

Twelve hours later she was exhibiting signs on the “bad list” and we rushed her into the hospital again. She was getting worse, not better, and it was likely that she had ruptured a disk in her spine. The doctor suggested hospitalizing her overnight and sending her for surgery in the morning. This is an extremely expensive surgery (thousands and thousands of dollars).

Our other option was hospitalizing her overnight, then taking her home the next day and keeping her comfortable while we wait for permanent paralyzation of her lower body. I imagine some people may also choose to euthanize at this point because of the whole quality of life issue.

Neither were an option for us. We gave the go ahead for spinal surgery because we could not imagine putting her to sleep and the idea of just waiting for her to be paralyzed. . . well, we couldn’t even fathom it.

On a side note – we have worked tirelessly to dig ourselves out of debt for the past several years. Student loans, back taxes, credit cards – my husband and I both brought a sack of debt to the table and believe it or not, we have pretty much wiped it clean over the course of four years.

Now, for the past year we have been scrimping and saving in order to purchase our first home this year. And I mean- SCRIMPING. I make my Hot Nerd a lunch to bring to work, we don’t eat out, order in, go to any movies, and I don’t buy any unnecessary groceries – why drink juice when we can have water? We even downsized and moved into a one bedroom apartment to temporarily cut costs. It has definitely been a challenge sharing a room with our toddler and having two dogs, two grown ups, and a little one in a teeny, closet like space. But we did it for the main goal- OUR OWN LITTLE HOUSE.

It’s amazing how focused we have been on saving money lately, yet when it came time to discuss our options for Lucy – we talked about it for no more than thirty seconds. The cost doesn’t matter, getting a house doesn’t matter, nothing really matters more to us right now than preserving and caring for this little life that has been entrusted to us. We made a commitment when we got her, and we are not about to fall short.

So, presently, Lucy is in surgery this morning, and the rest of us anxiously await the outcome.  There is a small chance that things won’t go well and we’ll lose her- but that chance is very small. There is also a chance the surgery won’t work and she’ll be paralyzed anyway- that chance is bigger than small. But, she is so loved, and so precious to us, that I can’t imagine any outcome but a good one.

We would sell all of our possessions if it meant saving her.

Because there is no price tag on little lives.

She is priceless.